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वो अब हमारी कब्र पे आकर

पहले तो नज़रें मिलतें ही मुह फेर लेते थे

बदल लेते थे राहें

हमे राहो में देख कर

अब तो हर राह पर हमारा इंतज़ार करतें हैं ।

नज़रें झुक जाती थी

दीदार होने पे हमसे

अब पलके बिछा के हमारी तस्वीर देखा करतें हैं ।

--जिद्दी राज़न

under peepal tree....

It was a sunny hot afternoon,I was walking back to my village from the bus stand as i haven't got any taxi or rickshaw.My village was around 7 km from bus stand and i decided to walk as it was the only option...!!My feet were saying me just stop otherwise i will make you fall down..!! SUN was my enemy today, he was following me and making me more tired..!!My shirt's colour has changed from light red to dark red due to sweat...!!

I was abusing myself that why did i choose this place for summer vacation, although after reaching my village i was going to enjoy the most..but these 7 km were really bad for me..

I had covered around 3 kms,then i decided that I am going to sit under some tree for some time and rest for sometime..

I could see a huge peepal tree near a mango garden at a distance and a boy sitting there..

Initially i thought it is mirage but when i reached there i found a boy sitting under that tree,he was a 17 year old boy of our neighbourhood BABBUA son of our postman, he touched my feet and said how are u?

I said I m ok !! but what are you doing here..he said i am just waiting for someone....!!

then he said me let me drop you to village....i said "ok..!! but i will ride the cycle"

after rest of half hour, I started cycling, the boy was sitting on the front rod of the cycle..

i talked him on various issues,and to create more interest

I asked him" so do u have a girl-friend??"

he said no!!

I tried to get the secret out and finally he burst out and said yes I had one..but village people seen us together in that mango garden and then her brother beat me brutally...

I was waiting there for her only,because she would be coming back from her school..

then he started telling me the whole story and his love story was really painful..

he use to love that girl since childhood, but the narrow minded village people beat him brutally and had thrown him in the fields,,,,and warned him to stay away from the village,so he live in the other village nearby..

i was really very shocked to hear it...

i said "oh thats really wrong..!!" love is not a bad thing....

i talked him on this issue and suggested him to forget that girl and study...

he said "now study is of my no use..!!"

finally we reached at the last turn of my village and boy told me to stop,as he cannot go inside the village..i said ok..!!

don't worry if you need any help just meet me !!"

he said" no one can help me now!!! , I will get her in my own way"

and went back ......

I reached my village , my grandparents were very happy to see me...!! I chatted everyone and enjoyed the the food.

In the evening my cousin brother took me for evening walk,I reached at that turn where that boy left me..!! my cousion told me"do u remember that BABBUA yaadav,son of postman??"

Three days ago ,village people beated him so hard that he died....and then they buried him in that mango garden, near a peepal tree...

I was shocked after hearing it all..my mouth was open wide,I had tear and fear in my eyes...

all the blood in my body was trying to get out of my body

now i could see that boy all around me...

i can see him crying...!!

i can hear his voice saying"they beat me brutally..!!"

it was unbelievable for me...

Next evening i heard that girl for whom BABBUA was beaten also died near peepal tree due to heart attack....!!

After 10 years I m again on the same road, but this time i am on a taxi.

when i reached that peepal tree i could see a boy and girl playing together, but this time all this was mirage ,but i can still feel both of them playing......

they still live under that peepal tree and now no one can stop them loving......

first ultra sound

my first ultra sound

i was sitting on the table and waiting for my breakfast, my mom came to me and said" don't u remember you have to go for ultra-sound today???"

i replied " i do remember !!,but how does ultra-sound relates to my breakfast??""

I never had ultra-sound test in my life,,so i didn't knew that for ultra-sound you should be without anything in your stomach....!!

she told me to go to hospital and gave me five hundred rupees...!!

i went to hospital and asked at the counter where to go for ultra sound

he asked me which ultra-sound??

i was confused !!! i didn't knew the types...but i was carrying the doctors prescription so i showed it to him,then he told me its UGC ABDOMEN...

i said "ok!!,how much is the fee??"

he told me its five hundred fifty rupee..!!

oh my god !!..now i have pay fifty rupee from my pocket...,i asked for some discount,student discount or something....!!but he replied NO DISCOUNT

finally i gave him money ,,all the money i had saved from my pocket money last week ...!!

then he told me to go to basement at ultra-sound lab..!

i went there,and radiologist told me to drink a lot of water...and sit outside for 15 minutes..

i took 4 glasses water of that hospital,it was warm and tasted bitter..

and for the time i was waiting outside ,, I was thinking what will happen??how the ultra sound happens...,?? i was a science stream student so i know what ultra sound mean but i really never known or thought of how it is medically applied...!! so i was just dreaming "it must be like this"radiologist will be wearing some headphones and he would be having some sound emitting device which will produce ultra sound ....

but this all was crap..

My all the logics were not clear,,My every logic was having two question with them and my logic had created a web and the interesting thing was that ultrasound word was out of my logic web....

suddenly peon called my name" ravi..!! ravi!!"

i stood up and went inside the lab. and what all i saw was very very different from my logic web

there was a computer having black and white monitor and a different kind of keyboard,some gun type of instruments were attached to it...

doctor told me to lay down on the bed,then he told me to put off my shirt from my stomach

i was very nervous,doctor put a cold gel on my stomach..and then he took one one of the gun and started spreading the gel on my stomach,,i was giggling all the time and radiologist was saying me stop laughing...!! i was feeling giggle with the movement of that gun that was spreading gel on my stomach....suddenly he told me to stand up,,and said its done...!!!

i was shocked ,,i was expecting other guns as well ,,but he told me its done..

i enjoyed all the time and i thought it was good experience,,,but it turned into bad one when i got report and doctor told me that you got tiny calculus in your right kidney,,